"Hope cannot be destroyed. It calls us to rise up; it whispers our name. It draws us to believe that, sometimes, wishes do come true." Kim Meeder, "Hope Rising"
Tuesday, February 09, 2010
Changes
At the end of October 2008, I began a new job at a homeless shelter in downtown Calgary working with marginalized men. As much as I enjoyed the position, it was stressful and wasn’t the ideal position for me. With much prayer, I decided it was better for me, and my health, to leave the company. So, on August 8 2009 I resigned.
During that job, feelings of inadequacy and people-pleasing were rising to the surface. In September I admitted to myself that I was unable to continue living as though everything was okay and as though I had dealt with previous feelings of self esteem and self doubt.
A friend referred me to a program offered by my church called Freedom Session (http://www.freedomsession.com/intro-to-freedom-session/an-overview-of-freedom-session). As a child I was bullied by my peers. I thought I had dealt with all the feelings surrounding my childhood, but I was living in denial. I have learned through this program that it’s freeing dealing with the past and trusting that God will give me freedom for the future.
At this time, I have decided to pull back from support-raising for Brazil. I ask that you please stop supporting me financially until further notice. I would, though, appreciate your prayers as I continue through the program as it is emotionally draining. I am thankful that God is bringing me through this process as I will be in a better place emotionally, spiritually, and mentally to serve God when I am finished.
I would also ask you to join me in praying about returning to school. I have been looking into taking a Masters in either Counselling or Psychology at Providence Seminary (through Ambrose Seminary) or a Diploma of Social Work or a Certificate on Addiction Studies at Mount Royal University in the fall of 2010. I feel that God is leading me to work within the addictions field, but I do need more training and knowledge in the area. This isn’t to say that I will never be going to Latin America, but that for right now, God has put this desire in my heart for more education and training.
I have spoken with the Executive Director of Latin American Mission Canada Inc and have his full support in wherever God leads.
Thank you for all of your support since I have applied and have been accepted as a missionary with Latin America Mission Canada Inc. I appreciate all of you.
If you have any questions or wish to continue to contact me, please feel free by messaging me and I'll contact you.
Blessings,
Julie
Saturday, October 17, 2009
The Promise
I never said that I would give you silver or gold
or that you would never feel the fire or shiver in the cold.
But I did say you'd never walk through this world alone.
And I did say don't make this world your home.
I never said that fear wouldn't find you in the night
or that loneliness was something you'd never have to fight
but I did say I'd be right by your side.
And I did say I'll always help you to fight.
I'll always help you to fight.
'Cause you know I made a promise that I intend to keep.
My grace will be sufficient in every time of need.
My love will be the anchor that you can hold on to;
this is the promise, this is the promise I've made to you.
I never said that friends would never turn their back on you,
or that the world around wouldn't see you as a fool,
but I did say like Me, you'll surely be despised.
And I did say
My ways confound the wise.
I didn't say you'd never taste the bitter kiss of death
or have to walk through chilly Jordan to enter into rest,
but I did say I'd waitin' right on the other side.
And I did say I'd dry every tear you cry.
Every tear that you cry.
'Cause you know I made a promise that I've prepared a place,
and someday sooner than you think you'll see Me face to face.
And you'll sing with the angels and a countless multitude;
this is the promise, this is the promise I've made to you.
So just keep on walkin',
don't turn to the left or right,
and in the midst of darkness,
oh, let this be your light:
that hell can't separate us,
you're gonna make it through;
this is the promise,
this is the promise I've made to you.
This is the promise,
this is the promise,
that I made to you.
Words and music by Brian White and Don Poythress
We were rehearsing this song in choir Thursday evening and God spoke to me. Trust me, I'm taking care of you. This is My promise to you.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Be Specific
While I was sitting eating dinner, this woman who was familiar sat down near me. I recognized her from the Center of Hope when I used to work there. She would come in the for the community meal at 4pm. It was a free soup line for anyone in the community. She was always rude and negative. But, we began chatting.
She told me that she's learning how to use the computer, taking a course at the library downtown. She was suicidal because her friend kept putting her down and telling her she couldn't do any of the goals she had set out for herself...learn the computer, learn how to drive and own a car. She's trying to break away from this relationship since she feels she's being verbally and emotionally abused. That explains why she was so negative when I saw her downtown.
Earlier that day, I had listened to Dr. David Jeremiah on Turning Point about resentment and anger and how if we don't deal with it, it'll destroy us and the people around us. God has perfect timing! I shared this with her. I shared that as hard as it is to severe those relationships around us that aren't strengthening us, we need too. But, we also need to deal with our resentment and anger which we have for others and for situations in our lives which have hurt us. I could tell she was hurting because she kept going back to what this woman had done to her. It made me think about my own situation. It's not right to hold onto the anger and bitterness. I need to forgive. So I encouraged her to forgive.
As we are chatting, I'm noticing people cleaning up around us. But I didn't feel led to leave. Someone had asked me a question which pulled me away from the table. But, she got my attention and asked if she could PRAY for me! Here we are, serving the guests, encouraging them to let us pray for them and she wants to pray for me! I told her that I would like prayer for a job. She then said, well, God wants us to be specific when we ask for things, so what type of job?! I explained specifically what type of job and she prayed for me, then I prayed for her.
What blows me away every time is that yes, they may be a marginalized society, but they are just like me. With hurts and struggles and choices to make in life. So messed up, intoxicated, strung out, low self esteem, bitter, angry (etc), but human and looking to be treated with dignity and respect, yet expecting the worst. They may seem scary on the outside, but deep down we are all the same.
I miss the people living in the East Village. Never thought I would say that! God calls us to go to the poor and hurting and love them. As I go, God will change and use me. How cool!
Thursday, September 10, 2009
"The Noise"
Strange noise in Ranchlands
Where is that strange noise coming from?
Updated: Thu Sep. 10 2009 15:14:33
ctvcalgary.ca
A University of Calgary assistant professor and an acoustic engineer are now researching the source of a strange noise in Ranchlands.
CTV News first reported on the noise heard by some Ranchlands residents back in February.
The City and utility companies all attempted to find what was making the noise to no avail.
Now, Marcia Epstein and Richard Patching have recorded the sound at a few residences and hope to gather more evidence.
Residents and the community association are just happy someone is looking into the unidentifiable sound.
Epstein says it appears the sound could be from several sources.
The funny part? I've never heard "The Noise" and my friends live in the area and if they've heard it, it was once and faint! Goodness, people! I grew up on a flight path and got used to it!
What is this world coming to?!!
Monday, February 02, 2009
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Interesting Facts...
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Addictions
We all have addictions, but they may not be illegal. Spending money, accumulating 'stuff', being busy, etc. Addictions are a distraction from everyday life. What can I do to numb the reality that I may not want to deal with. These addictions may not land us in a shelter, but they still mess up our lives and other people's lives.
Stop running from reality.
Run to God. It may not get easier, but the burden will be lighter. Do you want peace?
Run to others. Live, learn, grow and share in a community so that others can see your reality, support and pray for you and help you see your reality differently.
Change isn't always easy. But it's easier with God and community.
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Thankfulness
On Thursday October 9th I had an interview with The Salvation Army, Centre of Hope. I thought I was interviewing for Client Service Worker. I was interviewed for Team Leader.
Back up a bit:
On Monday September 29th a friend told me that he loves his job at The Salvation Army. Somehow it came up that they were hiring and I started asking all the necessary questions. It sounded like something I would be interested in. Ministry with the homeless, etc. in Calgary's downtown.
On the weekend, an interview time was set up. I was nervous, but knew that even though I was stepping out of the boat, God would take care of me.
Long story short: I was interviewed, called back and accepted the job as Team Leader that same day. I am truly thankful of how God provided for me.
When we take the step out of the boat and trust God, He provides. It may not always be in the way He provides, but He will always take care of us.
Right now I'm praying for a car. An automatic Japanese car, under around $1500, that is safe and can get me from A to B.
God is the great provider. He is in control and will keep me safe.
Happy Thanksgiving!
Thursday, August 07, 2008
Hollywood
She EXPECTS that she have one on one service, EVEN if it's busy. But, she rarely buys and if she does, she'll return it the next day. She's always at the Bay and most of the associates know her. When she puts items on hold, she gives her business card - fashion co-ordinator! If you saw her, you would know why this is funny. Recently, my friend nicknamed her Hollywood. Probably because she's so glitzy.
Tuesday was seniors day. While I was moving stock around in the back, I heard her. One of the associates came in the back and I asked her how it was going. She said that Hollywood doesn't want to be called a Senior...she wants to be called a Zoomer! What the heck is a Zoomer????
Should I now ask a customer when they are ready to pay, "Do you qualify for the zoomer's discount?"
It's always an adventure in Ladies Shoes!
Monday, August 04, 2008
A Little Bit of Winter in Brazil
RIO DE JANEIRO, Brazil - Brazilian wildlife authorities say penguins from frigid waters near the bottom of the world are washing up closer to the equator than ever before.
A spokesman for Brazil's federal environmental agency says about 300 penguins have been found dead or alive in recent days along the coast of Bahia state. The area, close to the equator, is better known for sunbathers in bikinis than for seabirds native to Antarctica and Patagonia.
Biologists believe stronger-than-usual ocean currents have pulled the birds north.
Others suggest the increase might be due to overfishing near Patagonia and Antarctica that has forced the penguins to swim further in search of food.
Temperatures in the current Southern Hemisphere winter are in the low 20s Celsius.
"This is unheard of. There have even been reports of penguins washing up as far as Aracaju," Adelson Cerqueira Silva said, referring to a beachside state capital even closer to the equator.
Silva said the environmental authority was receiving hundreds of phone calls reporting penguin sightings.
"We're telling people if the penguins don't appear to be injured or sick to leave them alone so they can swim back," Silva said in telephone interview from the Bahia state capital of Salvador.
Rescued penguins have swamped a triage centre for rescued birds, and Silva said about 90 of the birds found alive have since died.
Penguins have been sweeping up on Brazilian shores in ever greater numbers this year, for reasons that are not entirely clear.
While penguins commonly wash up as far north as Rio de Janeiro state in July and August - hundreds have done so this year. Bahia is roughly 1,200 kilometres northeast of Rio.
P. Dee Boersma, a conservation biologist at the University of Washington who works with penguins in Argentina, said that while she has heard of penguins occasionally washing up as far north as Bahia, the numbers washing up this year are extremely high.
"The last time that you got a lot of penguins was in 2000, mostly in Rio but some further north. That year the sea surface temperature was a degree lower than the 30-year average so the penguins just keep swimming in search of food without noticing where they're going," said Boersma in a telephone interview from Seattle.
She also said overfishing near Patagonia and Antarctica could be a factor. In the past decade, penguins have had to swim an average of 60 kilometres further north to find food, Boersma said.
The majority of penguins turning up are baby birds that have just left the nest and are least able to outswim the strong ocean currents.
Guess all I'll have to do is visit the beaches of Rio when I'm in Brazil if I ever get homesick!
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
D Day turned God's Day
Please, please, PLEASE don't wait to go to the dentist (even if you HATE it), it's not worth it!
I don't like the dentist, but it's always easier with drugs...oh and Tylenol 3 with codeine for the after effects. Am I in pain...not yet, but I'm a little 'happy'.
God did stretch my faith through it all. I know it's something simple. I even lost sleep over it...though it was an oven in my room the night before!
I keep panicking over the littlest things and God ALWAYS pulls through.
So thank you God, for using something I was terrified about to strengthen my faith and trust in You!
I actually will look forward to going to the dentist now...I never would've seen that coming!
Monday, June 02, 2008
Sorry!
May 2008 support letter
*You!
*Thank you for supporting me through prayer and donations over these last five and a half months.
*My orientation with Latin America MIssion in Miami, January 20 to February 1
*Although it was a jammed packed 10 days of orientation, I felt like I was coming home.
*I made some lasting friendships with the LAM staff and the other candidates.
*Through prayer and interviews, I've decdided to go to Brazil. I will be working with an organization called Valley of Blessing, City for Children. I never through I would be going to Brazil...NEVER say never!!
*The reslults of my MRI for my left knee
*I don't need surgery! Since my physiotherapy and exercises, I've had minimal pain.
*My exploration trip to Brazil, March 31 to April 8
*After letting worry consume me as I prepared to travel to Brazil, I learned that even though it doesn't look like it, God is fully in control and I MUST leave the worrying up to Him. Even though I wasn't sleeping, God sustained me and took care of me through work and commitments, flights and customs, airport navigation and finding lost luggage until I was safely in Aracariguama (an hour and a half from Sao Paulo).
*I spent a few days at Valley of Blessing, City for Children meeting the staff and hanging out with the kids. The ministry is about 20 yeears old and was started by two pastors. There are home for children 0-18 yrs, a church, a school, cafeteria, Bible college, dorms, prayer center and beautiful gardens. The kids are usualy sent to live there by the courts since they are lacking basic needs at home.
*I will be workiing primarily with City for Children filling inthe gaps in the Christian education system to meet public education standards. Through this, I'm hoping I'll be able to disciple some of the kids as well as learn about at risk kids. In the future LAM and I will disscuss the possibilities of using horses to reach at risk kids.
*Even though I didn't speak Portuguese, I figured out how to say "What is this?". Although I was saying it wrong, Lucas (see picture) clued in and taught me colors, parts of the body and how to count.
*I then visited the language school in Vianopolis. It's not set in stone that I'll be attending the school; it all depends when I leave. The first semester begins each August. If I leave earlier, then the plan is to receive tutoring in Anapolis. Both of these cities are in the state of Goias which is about an hour flight north of Sao Paulo.
*I spent the rest of my time visiting LAM missionaries who work with Christian Camping International Brazil. There three couples train Brazilians in every related to camp ministry.
*I loved Brazil! Even though it does have Latin influence, the country also has European influences since it was colonized by Portugal. It was normal to see fair skinned and dark skinned people. I'm excited for my return.
*My continued application process with Latin America Mission
*I'm learning more about myself and God as I am being stretched through the application process. God is in control. As much as I would like to leave by January, that may or may not happen. I can't focus on the how, but only on God. He will take care of the details.
Please pray that I won't get down thinking baout the length of time the process is taking (it's normal!), but that I'll use this as a chance to get to know myself and God better. My ministry can't be strong if my relationship with God is weak.
If you would like to contact me, please send me a message. Since this is a public board, I don't want to leave my contact information. Thanks for reading!
"For I know the plan I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11
Blessings,
Julie Clausen
Evangelism Never Stands Alone...
"Alone, evangelism is vulnerable to distortion or suffocation--it often becomes either an unworthy kind of proselytism, or is easily snuffed out in favor of other priorities. But when evangelism is a part of the the total mission of the church, surrounded by compassion and service and training for life, then it is vital and enduring."
"It is meant to be a part--not the total--of the Christian task. Look at the imperatives that always accompany the Great Commission: baptizing, teaching, discipling, healing. Look at the example of Jesus and his disciples. I agree. Evangelism is the priority mission of the Body of Christ. But it cannot, must, should not stand alone."
"To me, Kenneth, Mother's life says that for the Body [of Christ] to be able to evangelize, it needs supporting ministries, like the Bible institute, the radio station and publications. And wherever human need appears, the Body's automatic function is to respond. It is the very nature of the gospel to respond to the demands that a sin-sick world makes upon its resources. Such a response gives it credibility. This is what we are also discovering in the 'Caravans' (rural assistance) ministry in which I am currently involved. People give themselves to Jesus naturally in that kind of an environment."
-taken from, "One Step Ahead", The Innovative Strachans and the Birth of the Latin America Mission by W. Dayton Roberts (pgs. 183-184)
I like how Susan Strachans' daughter Grace, describes evangelism as a whole.
Thursday, May 08, 2008
Foooood!!!
Since the meat isn't processed and doesn't have added chemicals, it tastes amazing.
One of the restaurants I went to had a buffet layed out in front when I walked in. I chose all sorts of food (minus meat) and then sat down.
There's a small round dial on each table - one side red, the other green.
So, move it to the green side and wait.
We didn't wait long, and waiters started coming with different types of meat. They slice off what you want and will keep coming until you move the dial to red or stop.
Wow! Did I get my fill there!!
Definitely worth it.
There were places like that restaurant in Goias too. Except that I went to the BBQ itself and chose what meat I wanted and then my plate was weighed.
My mouth is watering just describing it!
Brazil
Traffic and Pollution
Alan is a LAM missionary in Anapolis with Christian Camping Internatioal Brazil. Eni Dell is his daughter (right). Miguel Angel (left) is VP of Ministries for LAM and I was traveling with him.
This is the Valley of Blessing. It was beautiful and peaceful. It's about an hour and a half outside of Sao Paulo. The people were so friendly and wanted to help me learn the language.
I can't wait to return.